I think I've officially hit a wall.
A dadgum brick wall!
And I've been hitting this thing repeatedly for about 3 weeks now.
Surely all moms hit it eventually.
I'm hitting mine for the first time about month 11 into this Mommy-life thing.
I'm absolutely exhausted!
My mental response to, "Mommy, Mommy, Mommy!" is....... and in this order:
1. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!
2. Where's the cake?
3. I need a new nail polish.
4. Where's your Daddy?
Thankfully, most of these thoughts, I have been able to keep to myself....... well, except for the cake one. I do have a radar for homemade goodies & their healing properties.
I want to blame all this recent craziness on my little one, but when I take a step back & examine it all........ I honestly think I'm the root issue. Oy!
Sure, he kicks it up a notch or two or twelve at least once a day. Sure, he has terrible aim when it comes to the toilet. Sure, he likes to run like mad through the house. And you can rest assured that he is NEVER going to obey our rule of "Don't chase the kitties."
But he's SIX years old. What am I expecting?
And when did my tolerance level for his "kid-ness" fly out the window?
I mean, have you seen the pollen in Georgia??? We don't drive around with our windows down.
So what exactly is happening to me?
I think the answer is in the title of this post, "Momma don't got no grace!"
Clearly, the grammar is horrendous, but the point comes across loud & clear.
I don't! I've run out of grace. There aren't even any fumes left.
A friend of mine & I have been working through a Bible study on grace. And it's been amazing! I feel like we're just scratching the surface on God's rich grace poured out on us.
It's mind blowing to think of the depths of God's grace being poured out on little, ole crabby me!
I want to take a bath in that grace! Roll around in it. Read it, sing it, live it!
I want to be a Mommy who then turns around & pours out that grace on her baby........ in hopes that he, too, can live in that grace & give it to others.
I pray that God's grace toward me is not in vain!
There's grace for you too, friend!
It's nearer than you think........... receive it!