Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Emotional Basketcase - Part 1.

It's been quite awhile since I've been emotional about our adoption.

Almost the WHOLE adoption journey I was an absolute basket case.

I would cry at the drop of a hat.

I would cry over commercials, TV episodes, other's adoption stories, & getting the wrong order from Zaxby's.

It was an emotional roller coaster, to say the least!

I cried for me.

I cried for my child.

I cried because I wanted my son LONG before I ever held him & kissed him.

I cried because it seemed that nothing went the way I wanted it to go.

But mostly I cried because of the beautiful story that was being written for us.

I would get so emotional thinking of our child.


Orphaned.

Abandoned.

Hungry.

Alone.

Needing ME, & me desperately needing HIM!

Mommy & Baby separated by mounds of paperwork & lots & lots of ocean water!

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However, when it all played out, I found that I wasn't very emotional at all!

Baby boy was pretty horrid in country!

I mean, B-A-D!

Our adoption agency worker told us that he was probably acting as horrid as he could to see if we would take him back.

I think she was right!

And, well, we didn't take him back.

We never even considered it!

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Walker has flourished & blossomed & is thriving now that he's home with his forever family!


 When I look back at our journey.

The journey through which God has graciously walked all three of us.

I get very emotional!

It's a love story that is still being written.

But, I must say that the beginning is pretty wonderful!

In fact, it's more wonderful than I could've EVER dreamed!

"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."  - Ephesians 3:20-21




2 comments:

  1. conception and labor pains of the heart . . . beauty-full. . . whatever draws us closer to the heart of the Lord and makes us more like Him . . . thankful for all the tears you shed. i know it was worth every.single.one. HUGS!!!!!!!

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